Post Father's Day Blog

So yesterday was Father's Day, as most of you are aware. And it surprised me just how much yesterday bothered me.  My dad and I are not close, have not been close for a while.  And it sucks, it really does.  Long past are the memories of time spent just hanging out on the farm, or talking to him about life.  I speak to my father about once a month, maybe. And it is a conversation that usually consists of 3 key elements.  Hi, how are you, and do you need anything.  That is what our conversation sounds like most of the time.

My father and I used to be pretty close, but over time and due to many reasons we have separated.  But life goes on.  I have learned that I don't need my father to be happy.  I am at the age where if he wants to be a part of my life, that is fantastic, if not, oh well.

But this blog is not meant to be one to give me sympathy or anything like that.  I have been one of the luckiest people do to my other parental figure, my mother.  She has been both father and mother, and then once she married my step-dad, still continues to be the single most important person in my life.  She has given me the tools I need to navigate the storms of life, and she is always there supporting me.  I love her and am so grateful for all that she has done for me, and I hope that I can be half of the parent she is.

So for those of you out there who are like me, with a less than desirable father figure, don't worry, you are just as whole and loved and blessed as someone with two fantastic parents.  Every person's situation is different, and you will learn and grow from whatever experience you have been placed in.

I love you all, keep fighting the good fight.

B

Long time, no blog

Hi there, I'm terribly sorry I've neglected you.  So here's the skinny, ME.  I've lost 30 pounds.  You may ask "How did you do it?"  Well it is a really quite simple diet, have your heart ripped out, stomped on and then put back in place.  You'll feel so miserable, that you'll eat because you have to, and will lose weight.

So clearly, I don't actually suggest anyone do that, but honestly, I do suggest cutting down on portions, we as Americans eat way way way too much food for each meal.  So the rule is, cut your meal in half, and then half the one half, that is how much food you actually need.

So more than that, I've realized these past few months I've been positively mopey, and for what?  Over someone who is now just one of my best friends, but really hurt me at one point.  Life does go on, it gets better, and you come out stronger on the other side of it.  So that's what I've realized.  Is it's time to move on and start fresh.  I'm learning to love again, and to move forward in all aspects.  So yeah it gets rough, but this is coming from the guy who titled his blog, life it'll get you every time.  I am well aware of the concept of just how much of an ass life can be, but I'm also aware of just how beautiful, fantastic, and wonderful life can be.

Never give up hope.
Never think that things are over.
Never believe that you aren't worth it.
Never think that you deserve to be hurt in anyway.
Never stop loving yourself.
Never lose yourself, it's all that you have.

LOVE YOURSELF.

This post is sporadic and not my most well constructed piece, but I promise you, I am living proof, things do get easier in time, and they will for you too.   I hope and pray all of you (if anyone is actually reading this) are doing quite well.  I love you all. Find peace, make peace, always.

Love, B.